This is Me - Getting Dressed Anxiety
This is a post included in the This is Me series where I answer 1001 questions about myself as writing practice. Each post consists of me answering 5 questions about myself. Wanna share what you would answer to any or all of the questions? Do it in the comments section!
DOES THE IDEA OF PERMANENCE APPEAL TO YOU?
I'm not really sure what this question means. I'm not really sure anything other than God is actually ever permanent. I guess the idea is somewhat appealing, but in the back of all of our minds, we know that nothing is every really permanent. That is a truth that we can't really escape from no matter how hard we try.
WHAT IS ONE THING FROM YOUR HOME YOU PRIZE THE MOST?
Gosh this one had me thinking for a while. Like what one thing would I grab if there was a fire? Maybe some hard drives with photos on them? Really it's the memories of my life that I prize, nothing really physical and the photos represent those memories in physical (or mostly digital) forms so I'd have to go with that I think. All other things aside from Paul and the dogs can be relatively replaced, but the memories would be something I would want to hold on too and of course the photos make that easier.
HOW DO YOU LIKE TO DRESS WHEN YOU GO OUT?
Like just going outside? Or like out for a night on the town? I'm telling you some of these questions really need to be more specific! I am generally a fan of being as comfortable as I possibly can without looking like a slob. I don't really follow trends until the trends make their way into the comfortable clothes...like joggers instead of wide legged yoga pants. If I'm going out to like a fancy dinner or party, I still prioritize comfort but try to do that a little more stylishly.
Honestly, I have quite a bit of anxiety about clothes and getting dressed in general mainly because I feel like a lot of what people buy and wear is a waste because they wear it once or sometimes they never wear it at all and that whole process bothers me. I'm also a bigger gal so finding clothes that are relatively comfortable and look good on my size tends to be a struggle so I pretty much try to avoid everything having to do with clothes and fashion. I feel like I want to like it, but I just don't.
WHAT'S A STORY YOU CONSTANTLY TELL YOURSELF?
A story that I constantly tell myself is that I won't know what to do or say in new or awkward situations. Like most people, I dislike conflict and I certainly don't want to be embarrassed in a situation with a lot of people so I find myself making excuses or avoiding new situations that actually might be very positive or rewarding. I know this to be true because of life experience and dealing with many new or awkward situations and everything has turned out fine, but I still tell myself that I won't know what to do and therefore I'll be embarrassed in front of lots of people.
WHO BALANCES YOU?
Paul for sure. God really knew what he was doing when he put the two of us together. He is spontaneous when I want to plan everything. He is more willing to do something new where I am hesitant. He is creative when I feel stumped. He challenges me and provides that balance that I need and I do the same for him.
WHAT DO YOU BELIEVE EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE?
This is easy...I believe everyone should have a robust and fruitful relationship with Jesus! I know there is so much baggage and junk that comes with talking about Christianity because of sinful people, but when you put all of that to the side and talk to someone who has a real relationship with Jesus...this is where you really start to understand what it's like. It's difficult, it's beautiful, its challenging...just like human relationships....we fail, we learn, we grow. Knowing and understanding the creator of the heavens and the earth wants to have a relationship with you...it just changes you. In the best way possible. I want everyone to have that.
